Maurice: a devotee and amateur artist
 

About me

I am a French man, and I was born in 1943. I live near Paris. In my professional life, I

am a press editor and also manage the contents of a company web site.

I have never been married. The 3 ladies-in-love I had in my life were not amputees,

and none of them were aware of my devoteeism. Now, I have just one mistress, we

don’t live together and meet when our agendas allow and we wish to talk and enjoy

together on what we like, lyric music, 20th century history -especially 2nd World War-

... but not amputees.

I must apologize for sometimes uncorrect English, but I hope readers will understand

what I have in my mind.

 

My story as a devotee

I never had amp mistresses, sure I didn’t try enough, but there are very few amp ladies to meet in France, I think. Why ? Because surgeons in our country are very good ; they try to save the limbs instead of removing them. Because amputees are provided with very good prosthesis, almost undetectable. And because both amputees and devotees are shy and don’t talk about themselves. To be sincere, I long believed that I was all alone on the earth with my preference for amputees, and that it was awful abnormality. So I kept it as my ‘secret garden’ and none of my relatives was aware of it.

I probably became a devotee at the age of 6, but of course, I wasn’t conscious of it.

At the junior school, I had a one-legged girl in my class. She had had her leg crushed

by a car when a baby. She was a SAK and used a wooden peg leg. One day, I was amazed seeing her sitting on a bench, and she didn’t wear the damn’ thing ! I realized that she needed a new leg because of her growth, so she had to use crutches during several days or weeks. Later on, I went to another school and only met this girl from time to time. I saw her with an aluminum peg leg, then with a prosthesis.

When I was 12 or 13, I met another SAK in the street. She was a very pretty young

woman using a pair of forearm crutches, and I remember her because for me, she

seemed to be the ultimate in beauty and elegance. She definitely made of me a

devotee, but at that time, I realized that there were very few ladies amps to meet, since I’d met only two. Sure that was a frustration, so I started drawing amps when I was a teenager, while keeping my drawings hidden for the reason above. And I never took a medical advice, for I thought that a psychanalist would make me stop, and I didn’t want to stop for I felt the abnormality delicious !

Years along, I met 20 or 25 amputee ladies, but each time, I was busy or

accompanied. Many of them were SAK, some SAE or SBE, and only one DAK and

one very young DAE with hooks. I live not far from a rehabilitation center, and also

attended to Paralympic Games, but never had noticeable success meeting amps.

 

 

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Unlike a lot of devotees, what turns me on with amputees is not the sight of stumps -

the stump as a phalllic symbol ?-, but the feeling of helplessness and the contrast between the beauty of a woman and her handicap. What excites me is seeing a pretty and healthy young woman struggling against the handicap of missing limbs. -paralyzed people don’t excite me at all. Maybe it relates to another kind of fetish I developed in my youth, I mean ‘bondage’. A girl struggling against tight ropes and gag excited me, and at a time when I’d not found amputee material, I looked for literature, photos and videos on that special fetish. You can find much more on bondage than on amps, and there are very good semiprofessional artists in the field.

While I had no training in arts nor in anatomy, I drew lots of amputees all those years.

My old drawings were very poor, and almost none of them were completed, because I

had no skills for inking and painting. Many of my drawings featured triple or quads, for

I was quite unable to draw hands and feet -now, I prefer a combination of one

arm/one leg off, for I think that it allows more various and realistic scenes.

At the beginning of the eighties, I had the opportunity to get several used issues of

the American magazine ‘Fetish Times’ featuring a lot of fetishes, and among them, a

few articles and pictures on amputees. Then I realized that I was not alone in amp

devoteeism and I started looking for more material. Not very successfully, but I luckily

could buy ‘Amputee Times’ #1 & 2.

Around 1991, my company provided me with a PC computer. The package included

the drawing software ‘Paintbrush’ and I tried drawing using the mouse. It was not

easy, and the monitor didn’t display the full picture. I made a lot of drafts without any

success, but I completed one and made various releases of it. You can see the best

on my picture page as ‘boss’ and ‘coffee’ etc. I don’t recommend the method, though

it allows any changes you want on the drawing.

The next step was getting access to a scanner at my office. It allows me to scan ink

roughs without worrying if they are not perfect, and improve it with art software aid.

That’s my method now for drawing my ‘Peggy’. You can read on the process below.

Finally, at the end of 1996, I was introduced to the Net, and to lots of nice sites for

amputees/devotees/wannabees, such as Ascot, Amputees are Beautiful and

Amputeelady by Tatiana Volkova. Some of the sites have a very short life, but thanks

to Devlinks, I’m always aware of the current sites.The BEST of all, of course, is

Ampulove, not only because Alex allowed me a nice space, but because it’s big,

active, interactive and frequently updated. Also about 40 amputees and devotees mailed me thanks to Ampulove, and I have regular correspondence with some of them.

I’m sorry there are so few artists in the amputee field. I take my hat off to ‘Dee’ and to

Bob Houghton, and to my colleagues on Ampulove Martin, Facundo and others.

Special greetings to my friend ‘Norm’, who provides me with so nice texts for my

darling Peggy. He gives her an additional life and character I appreciate much, and

our friends too, I’m sure. I hope new artists will join the crew soon, maybe using a

process like mine. And I hope being able to draw much more in the future. I wish a long life to Ampulove. Thank you Alex, keep the good way !

 

 

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About my process for drawing

I must admit that the process is long, so I can produce few pictures a year, but it allows nice and clean pics. I’m just an amateur artist, but I wish to underline that my drawings are totally by me, and not altered copies of other artists’ drawings.

- I first draw pencil drafts of scenes I imagine. I often need 20 or 30 drafts before

having the good one. My drafts feature the amputee and the general lines of the

decor for a correct perspective, but on this step, I don’t draw the other ‘actors’.

- When satisfied with a draft, I copy it on tracing paper, then clean it and add details,

other actors, etc.

- Then I copy it on white high-quality drawing paper and complete it with china ink.

- This copy is scanned. I use a HP Deskscan with Deskscan II software, very easy

to use and allowing many resolutions. I make 8 or 10 scans of the picture in the

black & white .BMP format. I scan it in b&w photo resolution too, in order to provide Alex with previews.

- Then I choose the best copy and I start a very long work to clean it, add little details

to make it more realistic, and finally paint it. My painting requires to convert the file

in the .BMP 24 bits format in order to have a lot of colours available. But that

makes very big files, up to 1.6MB. As some pictures of Peggy are series, I

memorize the colours I use on a notebook, so as to keep them from a picture to

another. For example, Peggy’s hair is yellow 255/255/128 when blonde and brown

156/156/78 when brown.

- When the pic is completed, I use the software PaintShopPro only to convert it in

the .GIF format, in order to send it by e-mail. For Web posting, Alex converts it in

the .JPG format. Referring to ‘Internet for Dummies’, I think that the .GIF is better

for drawings and the .JPG better for photos, but .GIF generates bigger files on the

Net. I don’t use PaintShopPro for drawing and painting, for Paint or the old

Paintbrush are easier to use for an amateur end-user like me.

Need additional details ? Mail me, friends.

Maurice

 

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from: Maurice
e-mail: mathef@excite.com