Maurice: a devotee
and amateur artist
I am a French man, and I was born in 1943. I
live near Paris. In my professional life, I
am a press editor and also manage the
contents of a company web site.
I have never been married. The 3
ladies-in-love I had in my life were not
and none of them were aware of my devoteeism.
Now, I have just one mistress, we
don’t live together and meet when our
agendas allow and we wish to talk and enjoy
together on what we like, lyric music, 20th
century history -especially 2nd World War-
... but not amputees.
I must apologize for sometimes uncorrect
English, but I hope readers will understand
what I have in my mind.
My story as a devotee
I never had amp mistresses, sure I didn’t
try enough, but there are very few amp
ladies to meet in France, I think. Why ?
Because surgeons in our country are very
good ; they try to save the limbs instead of
removing them. Because amputees are provided
with very good prosthesis, almost
undetectable. And because both amputees and
devotees are shy and don’t talk about
themselves. To be sincere, I long believed
that I was all alone on the earth with my
preference for amputees, and that it was
awful abnormality. So I kept it as my
‘secret garden’ and none of my relatives was
aware of it.
I probably became a devotee at the age of 6,
but of course, I wasn’t conscious of it.
At the junior school, I had a one-legged
girl in my class. She had had her leg
by a car when a baby. She was a SAK and used
a wooden peg leg. One day, I was amazed
seeing her sitting on a bench, and she
didn’t wear the damn’ thing ! I realized
that she needed a new leg because of her
growth, so she had to use crutches during
several days or weeks. Later on, I went to
another school and only met this girl from
time to time. I saw her with an aluminum peg
leg, then with a prosthesis.
When I was 12 or 13, I met another SAK in
the street. She was a very pretty young
woman using a pair of forearm crutches, and
I remember her because for me, she
seemed to be the ultimate in beauty and
elegance. She definitely made of me a
devotee, but at that time, I realized that
there were very few ladies amps to meet,
since I’d met only two. Sure that was a
frustration, so I started drawing amps when
I was a teenager, while keeping my drawings
hidden for the reason above. And I never
took a medical advice, for I thought that a
psychanalist would make me stop, and I
didn’t want to stop for I felt the
abnormality delicious !
Years along, I met 20 or 25 amputee ladies,
but each time, I was busy or
accompanied. Many of them were SAK, some SAE
or SBE, and only one DAK and
one very young DAE with hooks. I live not
far from a rehabilitation center, and also
attended to Paralympic Games, but never had
noticeable success meeting amps.
Unlike a lot of devotees, what turns me on
with amputees is not the sight of stumps -
the stump as a phalllic symbol ?-, but the
feeling of helplessness and the contrast
between the beauty of a woman and her
handicap. What excites me is seeing a pretty
and healthy young woman struggling against
the handicap of missing limbs. -paralyzed
people don’t excite me at all. Maybe it
relates to another kind of fetish I
developed in my youth, I mean ‘bondage’. A
girl struggling against tight ropes and gag
excited me, and at a time when I’d not found
amputee material, I looked for literature,
photos and videos on that special fetish.
You can find much more on bondage than on
amps, and there are very good
semiprofessional artists in the field.
While I had no training in arts nor in
anatomy, I drew lots of amputees all those
My old drawings were very poor, and almost
none of them were completed, because I
had no skills for inking and painting. Many
of my drawings featured triple or quads, for
I was quite unable to draw hands and feet
-now, I prefer a combination of one
arm/one leg off, for I think that it allows
more various and realistic scenes.
At the beginning of the eighties, I had the
opportunity to get several used issues of
the American magazine ‘Fetish Times’
featuring a lot of fetishes, and among them,
few articles and pictures on amputees. Then
I realized that I was not alone in amp
devoteeism and I started looking for more
material. Not very successfully, but I
could buy ‘Amputee Times’ #1 & 2.
Around 1991, my company provided me with a
PC computer. The package included
the drawing software ‘Paintbrush’ and I
tried drawing using the mouse. It was not
easy, and the monitor didn’t display the
full picture. I made a lot of drafts without
success, but I completed one and made
various releases of it. You can see the best
on my picture page as ‘boss’ and
‘coffee’ etc. I don’t recommend the method,
it allows any changes you want on the
The next step was getting access to a
scanner at my office. It allows me to scan
roughs without worrying if they are not
perfect, and improve it with art software
That’s my method now for drawing my ‘Peggy’.
You can read on the process below.
Finally, at the end of 1996, I was
introduced to the Net, and to lots of nice
amputees/devotees/wannabees, such as Ascot,
Amputees are Beautiful and
Amputeelady by Tatiana Volkova. Some of the
sites have a very short life, but thanks
to Devlinks, I’m always aware of the current
sites.The BEST of all, of course, is
Ampulove, not only because Alex allowed me a
nice space, but because it’s big,
active, interactive and frequently updated.
Also about 40 amputees and devotees mailed
me thanks to Ampulove, and I have regular
correspondence with some of them.
I’m sorry there are so few artists in the
amputee field. I take my hat off to ‘Dee’
Bob Houghton, and to my colleagues on
Ampulove Martin, Facundo and others.
Special greetings to my friend ‘Norm’, who
provides me with so nice texts for my
darling Peggy. He gives her an additional
life and character I appreciate much, and
our friends too, I’m sure. I hope new
artists will join the crew soon, maybe using
process like mine. And I hope being able to
draw much more in the future. I wish a long
life to Ampulove. Thank you Alex, keep the
good way !
About my process for drawing
I must admit that the process is long, so I
can produce few pictures a year, but it
allows nice and clean pics. I’m just an
amateur artist, but I wish to underline that
my drawings are totally by me, and not
altered copies of other artists’ drawings.
- I first draw pencil drafts of scenes I
imagine. I often need 20 or 30 drafts before
having the good one. My drafts feature the
amputee and the general lines of the
decor for a correct perspective, but on this
step, I don’t draw the other ‘actors’.
- When satisfied with a draft, I copy it on
tracing paper, then clean it and add
other actors, etc.
- Then I copy it on white high-quality
drawing paper and complete it with china
- This copy is scanned. I use a HP Deskscan
with Deskscan II software, very easy
to use and allowing many resolutions. I make
8 or 10 scans of the picture in the
black & white .BMP format. I scan it in b&w
photo resolution too, in order to provide
Alex with previews.
- Then I choose the best copy and I start a
very long work to clean it, add little
to make it more realistic, and finally paint
it. My painting requires to convert the file
in the .BMP 24 bits format in order to have
a lot of colours available. But that
makes very big files, up to 1.6MB. As some
pictures of Peggy are series, I
memorize the colours I use on a notebook, so
as to keep them from a picture to
another. For example, Peggy’s hair is yellow
255/255/128 when blonde and brown
156/156/78 when brown.
- When the pic is completed, I use the
software PaintShopPro only to convert it in
the .GIF format, in order to send it by
e-mail. For Web posting, Alex converts it in
the .JPG format. Referring to ‘Internet for
Dummies’, I think that the .GIF is better
for drawings and the .JPG better for photos,
but .GIF generates bigger files on the
Net. I don’t use PaintShopPro for drawing
and painting, for Paint or the old
Paintbrush are easier to use for an amateur
end-user like me.
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