I always thought of myself as being
unattractive to woman as a result of my
deformity. I had lost all hope of ever
experiencing sex in the manner it was ment
to be and I had to be satisfied with my
fantasies of being with a woman.
I was born with congenital limb deficiency
(proximal femoral focal deficiency and
bilateral upper hemimelia. I use a
weelchair which I control with my right
foot. My legs are very short (AK) and my
feet are severely deformed. I have four
toes on each foot and my left foot is
rotated almost backward.
I have never known what it is like to "walk"
exept short distances in the confines of my
home wobbling on my feet and keeping balance
by swinging my body left to right.
Earlier this year, our local branch of the
bMouth and Fot Painters Association arranged
an outing to the Durban Library where some
artwork was on display. (Durban - South
Africa is on the East Coast and has lovely
beaches. After our outing to the library on
Saturday morning, we were taken to the
beach. The mechanics of getting me on the
beach was quite a sight I supose and my
seven companions were all upper limb
disabled and I was the only one with a lower
While on the beach, a member of the
publishing group that accompanied us, came
up to me and asked if she could help me to
the water. I have to say that I am very
scared of the sea and I do not have a
particular wish to swim where violiant waves
will knock me over. I think she (Debbie)
sensed my fear and hesitation and
immediately assured me that she would keep
me steady in the water.
I had spoken to Debbie a few times before
and I felt I could not dissappoint her by
refusing her gesture so I agreed to go for a
"swim". In the water, she held me in the
shallows keeping me steady with both arms.
I actualy enjoyed the experience and after a
couple of minutes, she said that she would
like to show me some pictures and if I would
like to come to her home that night. She
would fetch me and bring me back to the
Balmoral Hotel where we stayed. I agreed
and that evening at 6:30 she picked me up
and we drove to her home on the Bluff (about
5 miles away).
Know I had not expected her to prepare
dinner but when we got to her house, she
said that she prepared some dinner. I was
prepared for some awkwardness because I eat
with my feet but she had a tuna dish
prepared. In any event, to cut a long story
short, we had dinner and chatted about
painting, books and music.
At about 10:00 I guess, she said that she
wanted to confess something to me which she
had kept a secret throughout her life.
After some hesitation, she said in no
uncertain terms that she found me very
attractive and in fact that she thought of
my disability as sexually stimulating.
She explained about devotees and wannabees.
She took off her shoes and went to fetch a
pair of elbow crutches which she explained
made her feel crippled like she always
wanted to be. I must say that she had very
beautiful slender feet which were very well
manicured. We started touching one another
and I came over my uneasiness because she
had me in a state of erection and touching
my penis with her feet and pressing her body
against my feet. Soon I was touching her
and we were sucking on one another's toes,
kissing and carresing all over. This was my
first real sex experience and has had many
since with Debbie.
We now see each other regularly and we are
talking about seeing each other even more
often. She really enjoyes going out with me
and she uses her crutches acting crippled.
In the movie theatre she enjoyes touching my
feet all the time and she always wants me to
"walk" in front of her.
The moral of my story is that she makes me
feel good and if it were not for her special
kind of attraction, I would still only be
fantasizing. So, bless all the devotees and
wannabees out there and stop feeling guilty
about your feelings toward us cripled
from: Timothy, male,
32, south africa